I have been privileged to have known a good and talented person for many years, from whom I have learned a lot. I think I would be different today if it weren’t for this great luck!

Real luck!

We were equal friends and he often shared his thoughts and emotions with me. I’ve heard this more than once:

His complete stupor and bewilderment!

He told me about a certain incident of communication with someone.

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I behave towards people in general and towards certain person in a completely friendly, polite way, I DO NOT SWAGGER, I do NOT show the slightest arrogance, I do not pretend to be some kind of oracle or lord of thoughts. In general, I behave normally, as an equal with an equals.

But I understand, I feel that his attitude towards me is subtle or almost imperceptible, shows some kind of incomprehensible ill-will, even when our relationship is quite friendly! Some kind of unconscious desire to humiliate me in some way, for example, “jokingly” compare me with some stupid or insignificant literary character, or a person famous for his stupidity or other unsuitable qualities, and so on!

Why?

After all, I did nothing to offend this person, or rather, all these people, did not insult, did not humiliate …????

It also seemed ridiculous and incomprehensible to me, Esprit, too, until finally I came up with one, I think, correct and accurate thought, which explained everything to him and to me (shortly before his death, so he had already ascended to heaven enlightened, without eternal perplexity).

My guess looked like this.

He is a kind-hearted man (but with a firm character), VIVIDLY gifted, that is, his talent immediately catches the eye. It is not quiet and outwardly inconspicuous, like some naturally gifted people, but immediately visible and felt. And this BRIGHTNESS and other kind and pleasant features of his personality immediately, UNCONSCIOUSLY, awaken in people, herd hierarchical slaves in their way of thinking, REGARDLESS of their personal abilities and occupied stairs on the hierarchical ladder, an innate and eternal inferiority complex.

When they communicate with you (I explained to him), they feel somehow INFERIOR to you! Suddenly they feel some kind of their SQUALOR, which they had NOT FELT before or tried not to feel. And this, just your existence and communication with them, they feel like some kind of INSULT to them! You are oppressing and HUMILIATING THEM not by your deliberate arrogance, which REALLY DOES NOT EXIST, but by the very fact of your existence “next to them”!

How a vile inhuman, seeing a kind and decent person next to him, goes berserk just from the fact of ANOTHER BEING, who also immediately SHOWS THEM by the very fact of his existence THAT THEY ARE INHUMAN! And they want to remain the same as they are used to and pleasant to BE, but they certainly want to be LOOKED as something angelic!

Esprit, — my friend replied fervently to me then, – You are mistaken and fatally mistaken!

Because what you are saying does not apply to my enemies, but to friends who have proved their friendship to me and repeatedly, or at least to people who have not had any hostile feelings towards me!

Me: And I wasn’t talking about your enemies at all, namely those who cause you this constant perplexity! Remember that not so long ago you mentioned your friend from school, for whom you always felt sympathy and admiration because of his clear and critical way of thinking and who NOW AVOIDS communication with you, under the pretext that you supposedly “SUPPRESS HIM!”. He is clearly a capable man and even SURPASSED YOU, but NOW he has FALLEN BEHIND and feels it. That’s why he came up with a ridiculous excuse. It’s not about friendly or unfriendly feelings for you.

Remember, you told me about two of your classmates, the “geniuses of the faculty,” who treated you with condescending contempt. And then I asked you: How do they behave towards other but INCAPABLE students of the faculty? Or just average people? Also with contempt or otherwise?

And you told me that one average guy, by the way, your good friend, he’s their school friend, and they treat him quite cordially, amicably, and without the slightest trace of contemptuous condescension!

So, again, it’s not about their talents, but about the “structure of the soul”, a personal way of thinking!

THEY feel THAT YOU ARE SOMEHOW SUPERIOR to THEM, and THIS infuriates them, because they are known as “geniuses”.

But their souls are like herd slaves!

And this automatically means that they, like ALL HERD SLAVES, are gnawed by an INFERIORITY COMPLEX and you resent it WITH YOUR WAY OF THINKING, and they, just from communicating with you, feel the fangs of this complex piercing into their vulnerable slave souls!

So are all the others!

What to do? — he asked sadly, agreeing-disagreeing with my arguments.

I replied: Remain yourself and bear this cross patiently and without a murmur!

You cannot and should not humiliate yourself by pretending to be different, LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.

You are the way you were born and became. Your psychological constitution is like this, you were born with it, and you will die with it! Therefore, stay in complete peace of mind with yourself.

And everything else is the inevitable “SIDE EFFECTS”!

Neither you can change yourself, nor you can change the mindset of a hierarchical herd!

Peace be upon his ashes!

14 III 2026